On the concept of “It seems as though there’s something going on even when it’s not.”
July 12, 2014
It was Len Barnes, editor and department manager of AAA’s Motor News, who wrote that line in one of his monthly “dining out” columns to describe a new Detroit area restaurant when I was working at the Auto Club during the ’70s. It really hit me at the time because he put into words a feeling I could never quite verbalize, one that I had often felt in certain bars, on college campuses and the streets of cool cities.
I was reminded of it in a recent conversation with my father-in-law who was telling me how much he enjoys sitting out in front of the mobile home in the Ft. Myers RV park where he spends his winters. People there are constantly walking by, riding bikes and driving cars or golf carts on their way to the things they do every day.
He can’t actually see anyone swimming or playing tennis or hitting a golf ball from his usual vantage point, but I think he can feel their energy and anticipation during their walk-up on the street. In other words, he seems to enjoy that there’s something’s going on even when it’s not.
Several years ago I came to truly understand the feeling—in reverse fashion—and finally realized something about myself that should have been self-evident.
During the mid ’90s, Debbie and I bought a sliver of property on the shore of Lake Huron in Harrisville, thinking that we’d build a house on it one day and retire there. It was an incredibly beautiful site. The final quarter-mile of the drive to it was a winding, single-lane road under a canopy of trees. The lot had thick woods; a sugar-sand beach; and two properties to the north were 1,500 feet of shoreline with nothing on it but an old log home that the locals said Henry Ford and his buddies once used for a weekend retreat. We purchased a couple of tents, and every summer we’d take our four children there to camp out on the beach.
We felt wonderfully secluded as we watched the kids charge into Lake Huron’s waves or while sitting around the campfire at night looking up at a thousand stars in the sky. Many times, however, in the middle of a beautiful, sunny afternoon, I’d perch my chair on the sand, set a cooler of ice-cold beer at my side and sit. And sit. And sit. After a while I’d think to myself, shoot, I wish someone would cruise by so I could just say hello or have some conversation.
Then one day “the fire” took our Clarkston home, and we were forced to make a decision about our next move in life. Rebuild? Persue the Harrisville dream? Or go with Plan C—relocate to Grand Haven, a Lake Michigan community mid way between Detroit and Chicago that comes alive during the warmer months?
We eventually decided to sell the Harrisville property and make the move to West Micigan. We haven’t looked back since. And that something’s-going-on-even-when-it’s-not feeling has had a lot to do with it.
Our new home is situated on a neighborhood corner, a few blocks from the waterfront, where we like to sit on the porch, listen to tunes and watch the tourists schlep their things to the beach, push baby strollers down the street, haul their boats through town and pedal by the house on their bikes. We love every minute of it.
It’s because of that feeling I speak of, the one I’ve felt so many times during my life, even in the oft-bustling lobbies of the corporate headquarters of the Auto Club and Ross Roy where I had my best working years.
I can certainly understand how some people prefer seclusion, even isolation, be it at a camp on a hidden point that juts out into Lake Superior, in the hay fields of a southeast Ohio family farm, or working alone in a home office down in the basement. I, however, have always been energized by lots of people doing their thing around me. I need that. Thank God my wife understands.
Next winter, Debbie and I will spend three months in Florida with my in-laws in Ft. Myers. We look forward to the warm temperatures, of course, and being active outside. But as much as anything, I think I’ll enjoy sitting in a chair, just reading a book when nothing much seems to be going on, because, in reality, I’ll know that there actually is, thanks in large measure to an awareness triggered by that old Len Barnes line I carry around inside of me every day.
I love my toothbrush…and other favorite things.
June 30, 2014
I suppose we all own, or have owned, “products” that we love and endorse. The rugged chain saw that hasn’t failed in 20 years. Or the old car that plowed through snow every winter and racked up 200,000 miles.
But what about the “personal things” that just feel right in your hand. Or the way they fit when you pull them on to wear? Here are my top five. Ever thought about yours?
- Wooden toothbrush—Last Christmas, my sister Mary gave me a “Smiles For The People” toothbrush (for every one sold the equivalent of one toothbrush is given to a person in need) with a handle made of bamboo. It does the job of cleaning my teeth, but more than anything I love the feel of its wooden handle and how it never slips in my hand.
- Fur-lined slippers—A few years ago, my daughters, Erin and Lindsay, chipped in to buy dear ol’ Dad a pair of UGG leather slippers, lined with lamb’s wooI. They’re so damn comfortable that I wear them every day. All year round.
- Bath robe—After our house fire in 2010, we received a bunch of Bed, Bath & Beyond gift certificates from various friends. I used one to buy a robe made of heavy cotton. After I shower in the morning and towel myself dry, I put it on to soak up the last drops of moisture on my back. It feels so damn good, especially on cold mornings.
- Handmade afghan—My mother-in-law’s chrocheting skills are legendary. She made me a blanket—in Michigan State green, with a bold white stripe—for snuggling on the couch. I love my “blanky.”
- Adjustable mechanic’s seat on wheels—My daughter Lindsay gave me this one for Father’s Day, and I absolutely love it. Perfect for rolling from tire to tire to clean the wheels on my car or staining a piece of furniture in the garage. Best of all, there’s no wear and tear on my knees. It’s just a matter of time before I race my son on his.
I think of the old work boots my brother-in-law Terry wore to summer jobs during his high school years and still loves to wear on family hikes today. Or the “warmed” towels my late brother-in-law Charlie enjoyed after his daily shower. I have no idea why these things strike me, but they do.
Two cities—one big, one small—with remarkably similar problems and in need of remarkable leadership.
June 18, 2014
I love cities. I’ve always been energized by “walkable” towns with people on the street—shopping, dining, jogging, hoofing it to work, etc. So it has long bothered me to witness the deterioration of the two cities I know best—big, bad Detroit and tiny, little Woodsfield, Ohio.
Most people know all about the rise and fall of the Motor City.
After World War II, Detroit’s population peaked at 1.8 million. Three hundred thousand people went to work every day in “Big Three” factory jobs within its city limits. And the downtown area bustled with activity.
Today, Detroit’s population is half of what it once was. The city is fighting its way out of municipal bankruptcy. And after 70 years of auto jobs moving to the suburbs and faraway places, the only ones left in Detroit are those at Chrysler’s Jefferson Avenue plant and at the headquarters of General Motors in the Renaissance Center.
I’m far less knowledgeable about Woodsfield, population 2,300, but I’ve been observing its backward slide during visits for the last 35 years since I first met my wife who grew up there.
Isolated in the foothills of the Appalachian Mountains, about 30 minutes from the closest freeway, Woodsfield is located in Monroe County, Ohio’s largest geographically, but the smallest in terms of population.
A few years ago, when a big aluminum plant in the area closed down, one that had employed close to 1,000 workers, it was a huge blow to Woodsfield and the small towns of economically depressed southeast Ohio.
The complaints I hear about Woodsfield from the people who live there sound uncannily similar to the issues Detroiters have grappled with for decades: inferior schools, drugs, welfare dependence, lack of jobs, insufficient tax base, loss of historically significant architecture, a dwindling middle class and more.
Yet there are signs of hope for both cities.
Assuming that creditors don’t stall the bankruptcy process in court and the city’s unions vote to accept a better deal on their pensions and benefits than thought possible a year ago—still a bitter pill to swallow for my friends who are retired Detroit policemen or firefighters—the city will have an opportunity to pick itself up off the mat. Meanwhile, Dan Gilbert, founder of Quicken Loans Inc. and owner of the Cleveland Cavaliers, is rehabilitating over 50 downtown properties in his quest to attract private business and diversify the city’s economy. At the same time, young people with no memory of the ‘67 riots continue to flock to the lofts and apartments being created in and around the city’s center.
In the case of Woodsfield, a boom in drilling for shale oil and natural gas in the area may ease the loss of the region’s coal plants, although the hunters and fishermen I talk to are highly skeptical of what “fracking” could do to disrupt the land and contaminate the ground water.
The question I have is whether Detroit and Woodsfield have the right kind of government leadership needed to capitalize on these opportunities and turn their respective cities around.
I like what I see so far from Mike Duggan, successor to former Detroit mayor Kwame “Slime Bag” Kilpatrick who lied, embezzled and defrauded the city into “Kilpatrick Incorporated” and is now doing 28 years in the slammer for it. I can’t even remember the name of Woodsfield’s mayor, but I just don’t get the sense that city and Monroe County officials have a long range plan for the future.
Perhaps that’s unfair of me to say since I don’t read the Woodsfield papers or talk to a representative sample of people. But I know this: that any time I’ve witnessed a successful turnaround of a large enterprise—be it Ford Motor Company in Dearborn, my old hometown, or the athletics program at Michigan State University, my alma mater—there has been a dynamic leader at the top, surrounded by a great team, with a strategic plan, who gets “buy-in” from all constituencies and executes the plan with everyone’s help.
I think it may be happening in Detroit. I hope it will be happening in Woodsfield.
Walter feared no man. He didn’t fear death, either.
May 19, 2012
Tales about old neighborhoods often include stories about guys who were local legends. When they’re told about the old multi-ethnic, working-class East Dearborn neighborhood where I grew up, the conversation invariably gets around to Walter Lamb.
How many hundreds of times did old friends and I knock back a few beers and recount the exploits of the mighty “Thor”? Like the time that he took down local bully Frank Butler on a side street and pinned his head to the curb in a matter of seconds. Or when he went toe-to-toe with bad boy Rocky Alkazoff (who years later would be sentenced to “life” in prison for dealing drugs and being a habitual offender) in a bloody three-round match, illuminated by headlights in a parking lot near the site of the old Ford Rotunda. Or when as a 14-year-old he kicked 17-year-old Mitt Romney in the balls (yes, that Mitt Romney) and pounded on the rich boy’s face after Mitt made fun of Walter’s freckles at the DAC where his FBI-agent father was a championship handball player.
Oh, yes, Walter could handle himself. And he came in an explosive package for those who made the mistake of mixing it up with him. After all, he possessed a Kirk-Gibson-Iike-I-will-beat-you confidence. And as a young man he retained the cat-like quickness of his high school point guard playing days at St Al’s. Of course, he was always addicted to weight lifting, and even into his 50’s set a U.S. record in “the curl” for “senior athletes” in his age and weight division.
But what the unsuspecting didn’t know about “Wally” was this: He spent virtually his entire life on judo mats, starting at age six, and along with brother Billy, became a Big Ten judo champ at MSU. He also coached teams of young men to four consecutive Great Lakes judo championships. So if you were a “bad person” who had a bone to pick with Walter, you were picking it with the wrong guy—a human hurricane who came at you with a devastating combination of speed, strength, grappling skill and supreme knowledge about leverage.
But if that’s all you knew about Walter Lamb, then you didn’t really know Walter.
I was one such person until the late ’90s when he and I began trading long e-mail communications. First about the old neighborhood. Then about our beloved Spartans. And eventually about the things we felt most deeply about in life.
It was then that I learned how Walter got into trouble with administrators at Henry Ford Community College, when as a sports columnist for the school newspaper he wrote a piece criticizing the HFCC head basketball coach by writing words to this effect: “I could guide this team to more wins just by playing the black guys who are sitting on the bench and are better than the white guys who make up the starting five.” Then I learned this about him: that he had spent years studying all the great religions of the world in the effort to go as far as reason would take him, before ultimately concluding that it was better to simply “have faith.”
Although he was famous to the end for forwarding mass e-mails with “politically incorrect” jokes, the “real” Walter could articulate his amazing insight into how things got to be the way they are in the world today and what he felt must happen for positive change to occur.
I could go on and on about Walter Lamb’s astute political views, his creative writing ability, his well-rounded knowledge about music, sports and more, but I must emphasize this: Walter Lamb was the most fiercely loyal person I ever met in my life—to old St. Al’s High, to the old ‘hood, to his best buddies, to all the kids he mentored, to his Spartans and, above all, to his wife Jill and daughters Jody and Brooke of whom he was so proud and for whom he often said, “I would fight to my last breath…”
Ah, the concept of “death.” We would sometimes talk about it. And Walter would say to me, barking into the phone, “Why should I worry, ‘Bucket’? I’m a noble, fair-haired Viking warrior. Valhalla is my destiny.”
No doubt, Bruz. And I suspect you’re presiding over things there right now with a turkey leg in one hand and a goblet in the other.
While updating my phone book, I couldn’t bring myself to delete the names and numbers of friends who have died.
April 28, 2014
It’s about 475 miles from Woodsfield, Debbie’s hometown in southeast Ohio, to Grand Haven where we live in West Michigan—a distance that takes about eight hours to drive. With Deb at the wheel during the trip home after our Easter visit there—featuring the annual “Rensi Walk”—I decided to pass the time by updating the contact information on my cell phone.
I began by fixing the first listing under the A’s where there was a home phone number and street address under “Anthony Adams.” His cell number, however, was listed under “Tony.” So I consolidated the information and continued to fix other listings that required updating.
I had only gotten to the B’s when I stopped at the one for my old friend “Bernie” who died due to liver cancer about two years ago. I tapped his name on the screen and noticed numbers recorded for both his cell phone and work phone. I decided to call them both. When I touched the listing for his cell I heard a recording say, “The subscriber you have dialed is not in service…” And when I called his work number the voice at the other end said the number “has been disconnected.”
And yet, I could not bring myself to touch the red letters at the bottom of the screen that said “Delete Contact.” Same for when I came across the listings for “Friendly Frank,” “Big Jim,” Gary “The Bear,” Jeff, my brother-in-law Charlie and “Walker”—five friends from my old neighborhood, one from college and one from our days living in Clarkston.
Each one of them…gone.
I couldn’t bring myself to delete their names, and I doubt that I ever will. It would be an affront to the memory of who they were and what each one of them meant to me.
I was a fifth-grade bench warmer on Jim’s sixth-grade basketball team in 1958, until mid season when I replaced him as a starter. I never let him forget about it, either. We spent the rest of our lives in friendly (most of the time) arguments over politics, economics and Michigan-Michigan State stuff. And during the prime of life, first Walker, then a decade later Charlie, accompanied some of my family members and me on trips to Poland and parts of Europe. It is amazing how close you can get to someone sitting around a table in a cafe in a foreign land, discussing feelings about how people from another culture live their lives compared to the one you know back home.
I can’t help but wonder how many more times I’ll glance at my phone and encounter names and numbers that I may never call again. Or whether friends will have to make decisions about tapping “Delete Contact” when they come to mine.
More than sixty years later, Peggy is still “Margaret,” Tony is still “Anth,” and, man, did I learn a lot from the kids at St. Al’s.
April 15, 2014
I went to a planning meeting in the Detroit area last week for the 50-year reunion of my high school graduation class, the Class of ‘65 at Dearborn St. Alphonsus.The meeting was at the home of my long-time friends, Noel and Peggy MacKinnon who were high school sweethearts.
There were eight people at the meeting. Seven of us attended “St. Al’s” together for 12 years, dating back to the first grade over 60 years ago. One person in attendance joined our class as a high school freshman when her family moved into the neighborhood in 1960 or ‘61.
I was the first to arrive for the meeting, and when Peggy greeted me at the door, I hugged her and said, “Hi, Margaret,” addressing her by her “given” name without even thinking about it. After all, that’s what the nuns called her during all the years we went to school together.
Day dreamer that I am, I kept getting grade school and high school flashbacks of the people sitting around the dining room table as we discussed dates and venues for the big event.
There sat Noel at the other end, and I thought about the afternoon back in ‘62 as one of the nuns led a discussion about black stereotypes when Noel raised his hand, stood up and answered a question with a question: “Well, have you ever watched the nightly news and observed how articulate Martin Luther King is when he speaks?”
Bam. Linebacker moment. In that instant I learned that it would be a good thing to start paying more attention to world events…and that if at least one person from a group demonstrates a certain level of excellence, then others among them may have the same potential.
Down the table to my left sat Ron Rosalik, with whom I played in a bunch of big-time (for Detroit area kids) CYO grade school basketball games. But on the afternoon of the meeting I was thinking about a classic photo from the St. Al’s 1963 yearbook where Ron, hair slicked back, fist pounding the lectern, and with a snarl on his face, dramatically emphasized a point during English class. That was the day I learned it was okay to stand on one’s two feet in front of a group and be passionate about what one feels inside.
To my immediate left sat Tony Adams who brought an old “memory book” with individual graduation photos of class members stapled to the pages. I glanced at some of the handwritten messages on the back. Not one person wrote “Tony.” Each one scribbled “Anthony,” or “Anth.” Later, he told me that one day in the first grade, Sister Ellen Richard called him “Tony,” and that he corrected her by insisting, “My name is Anthony.”
It was some college buddies who started calling him “Tony” during his days at Western Michigan, and he eventually went with it. But to me, he’s still “Anthony” in my heart of hearts, the kid who taught me by example the meaning of conviction and countless other valuable things during the twelve years we walked to school together, played sports, chased girls, shared dreams.
When the meeting was over, Peggy uttered a short prayer for one of our classmates and closest friends who was recently diagnosed with cancer. It was vintage “Margaret,” always one to be concerned about the welfare of others.
No one had more influence on me during my life than my parents. And over the years I was undoubtedly shaped by lessons learned from coaches, college buddies, work friends, bosses and many others. But there’s always been something special about those 119 kids from that small Catholic school in that tightly knit East Dearborn neighborhood I came from. I’ve long contended that there’s a little bit of every one of them inside of me.
Yup, I took accordion lessons as a kid…and hated every minute of it. But I’d kill to be able to play the squeezebox today.
April 1, 2014
Most years, Debbie and I take a break from our severe Michigan winters to visit her folks in Ft. Myers, Florida. While there, we usually visit a bar and restaurant on the beach called Junkanoo to hear a 12-piece accordion band, the Polka Playmates, that performs there on Tuesday afternoons during February and March.
Accordions and beer on the beach. What a concept!
The group plays a “Slovenian style” of polka music which is more “oom pah pah” than the “git down” Polish style that I prefer. Nevertheless, I’m always mesmerized by the musicians on stage who tap out melodies on a keyboard with their right hand while simultaneously pressing buttons for bass notes and chords with their left hand—as they compress or expand the instrument’s bellows.
What they do ain’t easy. Trust me, I know. After all, like a lot of young Polish-American kids during the ’50s, I took accordian lessons from about the time that I was in the fourth grade until I was in the sixth grade. My sister Mary took lessons, too.
It wasn’t something we asked to do. My Mom and Dad simply informed us one day that we’d be taking lessons from an instructor who would visit our home once a week. We did as we were told.
The accordion was always my Dad’s favorite instrument. When he was a kid, he found one that had been thrown out in the alley behind his house. As the story goes, he took it to an accordion instructor who laughed when he saw the sorry state of the thing. There would be no accordion lessons for my Dad. His folks didn’t have the money to buy him a decent instrument.
Oh, how he loved it, years later, when Uncle Buckley, who could play the accordion by ear, would raucously perform his repertoire of polkas and obereks at my grandparents’ house on Sunday afternoons—my Dad and Uncle Joey invariably singing along—in the presence of my various aunts, uncles and young cousins.
It was my Dad’s dream that Mary and I would be able to create the same sort of excitement with our instruments in the living room of our home.
But it was not to be.
I remember the night when my sister and I were instructed to set up our music stands in the “TV room” and play for some friends of my parents who were visiting one Saturday night. I dutifully strapped on my black Rondelli and played…with tears streaming from my eyes.
I was into being “cool,” and the accordion was not cool. I was also totally into rock ‘n’ roll, owning every 45 released by Frankie Lymon and the Teenagers by the time I was 11. Picking up on my lack of interest, Mr. Errol, my instructor, worked out the melodies of some “hit tunes” of the day, put them down on paper and “mimeographed” copies of them for both Mary and me.
But one day, when I attempted to play the Elegants’ “Little Star” for Tony Adams and Mickey Bonkowski, friends and teammates on my C.Y.O basketball team, it was a disaster of laughter. I can still see Mickey doubled up on the hardwood of my bedroom floor—tears in his eyes, spit drooling from the sides of his mouth—as I attempted to peck out the song.
That was it. I’d had enough of the accordion. A few weeks later both my sister and I quit taking lessons.
Looking back, I have little doubt that I benefited from the experience. It gave me an understanding of the music scale. I know how certain keys played together create the sound of a chord. And there was the discipline of it all—I practiced every day, even if it was only for 20 or 25 minutes.
Mary still has her “sparkly” orange and grey accordion, as well as her “Sedlon Method” music books. My Dad sold my accordion to one of his friends.Truth be told, I’d love to be able play that thing today. If I could, I’d pack it into the car like a suitcase and play at my in-laws’ home in Ohio when we visit there at Easter time. I’d probably lug it into neighborhood bars and play for beer. And I’d certainly tickle the keys on the porch every summer during Coast Guard Festival when tourists fill our town.
Many friends have suggested that I should take lessons once again. But in my experience, those who can play—really play—an instrument are people who have at least a little bit of natural “feel” for it—that “ear” that Uncle Buckley had. Now, when you layer some instruction over that, the music can touch people’s hearts, whether it’s played on a piano, a guitar or even an accordion.
What I woudn’t give to be able to do that.
Back to Detroit, a drive down Oakman Boulevard and memories of better days for the city.
February 17, 2014
When I was growing up during the ’50s and ’60s, Oakman Blvd. was considered a special street in my mostly working class Dearborn neighborhood. That’s where the big homes—in English Tudor, Italianate, Dutch colonial and Spanish architecture—stood.
Doctors, dentists, businessmen, even an FBI agent lived on Oakman in those days. Legend has it that Mafia types connected a couple of the older homes with underground tunnels. And I recall one house where the owners invited us into their kitchen on Halloween night and served us hot dogs.
Divided by a landscaped island that at one time boasted unusual plants and trees from foreign countries, Oakman runs north and south from Michigan Ave. to Tireman in Dearborn, turns into a winding road as it crosses the border into Detroit, until it ends—or begins, depending upon one’s perspective—in Highland Park near Henry Ford’s old Model T plant, which still stands today.
My house on Tireman was three blocks west of Oakman. Next door lived Mickey and Billy Phillips. Billy was five years older than me, and when I was a gung-ho grade school basketball player, he was kind enough to let me tag along when he and a friend would drive Oakman Blvd. en route to the University of Detroit Memorial Building (now called Calahan Hall) for some big-time hoops.
Bursting with excitement as we made the trip, I would stare out the window of the Phillips’ family car, wondering who lived in those magnificent Oakman Blvd. homes, while anticipating the amazing college or high school basketball I would see that night in the building I still consider to be the best for watching games because of its intimacy and great sight lines.
Those were the days of U-D’s Dave DeBusschere who went on to play for the Detroit Pistons, New York Knicks and in 1996 was named one of the 50 greatest players in NBA history. But it was the city championship games between the best of the Public School League and the best of the Catholic League that really turned me on.
Billy took me to see two of those championship games, in 1959 and 1960, both pitting Detroit Eastern with 7’0” center Reggie Harding, who would become the first player drafted into the NBA without playing college basketball, against Detroit Holy Redeemer with 6’10” Bill Chmielewski, who went on to play at Dayton and was named MVP of the 1962 National Invitational Tournament.
Those were also some of the last great days of the post-World War ll era for the city of Detroit—before the ‘67 riots, resentment caused by school bussing, deindustrialization, white flight, urban sprawl and a host of other problems that conspired to drain the city of its middle class.
I was in the Detroit area to compete in a bench press competition recently, and as I approached the city in my car I decided to get off the freeway and drive the old route we used to take home from U-D, via Oakman Blvd., back to Dearborn. As I passed the university on Livernois, it struck me that the street was devoid of students and that there were few retailers or bars that catered to them. A little further south of the campus I approached Oakman and made the right-hand turn onto it that I had made so many times during my adolescent years.
As I slowly drove its winding route, Oakman looked “tired” to me. I began to note aloud the security doors on many homes: “Yes, yes, yes, yes, no, yes, yes, no, yes, yes, yes…” I said as I drove the boulevard. Their prevalence was no surprise to me in a city that for decades has grappled with a persistent crime problem. When I reached the intersection of Grand River and Oakman, a thriving retail strip until the early ’70s when there was a Federal’s department store, Sears, Cunningham Drugs and more, I noticed boarded-up stores and the crumbling walls of urban decay. A few minutes down the road, when I crossed Wyoming Ave., I looked south and gazed upon acres of open land where Mackenzie High School, with its once distinctive blue and yellow Pewabic tile around the main entrance, stood until it was demolished in 2012.
Finally, when I crossed into Dearborn at the city’s border, Oakman Blvd. looked much as it did when I was a child, although there are fewer trees and shrubs growing on the island now and the area has undergone demographic changes in terms of ethnic composition, average household income, etc.
Some Detroit streets are in better shape than the Oakman Blvd. that winds through the city today. Many others are in far worse condition. And while both the city’s downtown and midtown areas continue to make forward progress as young people seeking an “urban experience” and who have no memory of “the riots” continue to move into lofts and apartments, Detroit’s neighborhoods are a different story. I suspect we’ll know they’ve made a comeback when Oakman Blvd. shows signs of energy once again and the number of security doors on its homes gives way to the beautiful wood doors hidden behind them.
I doubt that I’ll live long enough to see that happen. I hope I’m wrong.
There’s no secret to “The Secret.” As the nuns at St. Al’s used to say, “Have goals, work hard, think positively and good things will happen.”
January 29, 2014
Somewhere amid a recent flurry of e-mails between members of my extended family, my son Gordon wrote that he attributed getting his new job to the message in The Secret, the New York Times best seller by Rhonda Byrne. Essentially, the book’s message is this:
When you think positively and continuously envision the things you really want in life, the “law of natural attraction” eventually kicks in as you surround yourself with people, experiences, situations, etc. that help turn dreams into reality.
Fact is, Gordie’s sister, Lindsay, gave him a tip about an opening at the company where she works. He applied. He interviewed. He had the right background. He got the job.
And yet, one could argue that “the secret” did indeed work for him. He constantly envisioned the kind of position he wanted. He thought positively about it, day and night. He went after it. He engaged with people who could make it happen, his sister among them. And in the end, he got what he wanted.
I read The Secret when it was first published a few years ago. When I finished it, my reaction was, “Hell, I’ve known this all my life…this is what the nuns at St. Al’s were always preaching…this is what Coach Mackey was saying every day at basketball practice.”
I totally bought into their advice as a kid. By the time I was in the seventh grade I constantly dreamed about becoming a writer. I kept writing during grade school and high school. And in college, when my journalism professors edited my stuff and gave me Cs, I was convinced that “they didn’t get what I do.” So I took essay writing classes through the English department…and aced them. I read books about writing. I talked to writers about writing, including the editor of the Detroit Free Press. And then one day I got a job writing copy for the Auto Club of Michigan.
Similarly, when I was in high school, I began to think that I would not get married until I was 30 or more. Then, as a young adult, I started to envision that I would meet a woman who would have a frame of reference different from my own, someone who would be from a different place and change my life. I never told anyone these things, but they were always on my mind. Then one day at the age of 31, in a cab, in Guadaloupe, I met this nurse from Cleveland who grew up in the foothills of the Appalachians. A year later she became my wife.
I could cite example after example of how outcomes I’ve envisioned and thought positively about have come true for me.
Coincidences? Self-fulfilling prophecies? ”The secret”? Who can say?
Certainly there’s no way that a goal and any amount of positive thinking was ever going to make up for my lack of skills and transform me into a major league baseball player. And “the secret” won’t cure someone diagnosed with cancer, although I suspect that it may be part of the solution.
I just know that a long time ago I bought into the idea of having goals and eliminating what motivational speakers call “stinkin’ thinkin’.” As I’ve always tried to make my kids understand, “If you think you can, maybe you will. If you think you can’t, you won’t.” That, for me, is the secret.
Everyone changes over time, but to what degree does a part of us remain the same?
January 20, 2014
I’m not the same person I was 10 or 15 years ago. During the last decade and a half I was fired twice. My home burned down. My children grew up. I became a house husband. And I moved across the state to west Michigan.
I’m sure that all those things changed me a bit.
And yet, I wonder to what degree I remain the same person I have always been.
I think that I still have a good sense of fair play. I still try to be inclusive of people who are different from me. And I’ve always felt extremely loyal to my family and friends.
Yet I’m sure I’m different in certain ways.
I’m not quite as patient as I used to be. I probably have a lower boiling point than I once had. And there are many things that interest me today that never interested me before.
I collect pudding stones, for example. And I go to cooking classes. I even took a shot at acting in a community play last fall. Who’d a thunk any of those things?
As the years have rolled by I have observed changes that have taken place in others, too.
When I think about some of my long-time friends, those from the neighborhood where I grew up, as well as some of my pals from college, I see former beer guzzlers who are now wine connoisseurs. Risk-takers who now seem cautious. And some who once leaned left who now lean right.
The more I think about it, I suspect that I sometimes confuse change with growth or development, processes that continue—or should continue, I think—until the day we die
The way I see it, we are all born with a certain essence. At some point in life we acquire a sense of self. At that point, we start becoming aware of our strengths and weaknesses, building upon the former while working on the latter. Thus we evolve over time, becoming the person we are capable of becoming.
A few years ago I got into a heated discussion with a friend from way back. I’ve long forgotten what we argued about, but it has stuck in my mind ever since when he vehemently disagreed with me about something and said, “I know you, Lenny…” as he lit into me, certain about his point of view.
I was rather stunned when he said that because, yes, I’m sure he understood me at the core, but at the same time I realized that he hadn’t really noticed how getting married, raising four children, the struggles of a career, etc.had changed some of my perspectives over time.
I’m convinced that I still have many of the same sensibilities that I had when I was a young person, perhaps even as a child, but I’d like to think that I’ve changed a tiny bit almost every day in the never ending quest to become a little more, a little better than I was the day before.
Five things I saw, heard or experienced on Christmas Eve that caused me to feel thankful for a wonderful life.
January 2, 2014
During the weeks leading up to Christmas, there was an open, emotional and enlightening internet discussion about depression among the cousins, aunts and uncles of my extended family. It made me realize how difficult the daily challenges of life can be for some people. It made me wish that I could help them.
The very least that I could do, I reasoned, was to empathize. And to be thankful that the “ups” have far outnumbered the “downs” in my own life. That’s when I decided to take 24 hours to be extra alert to the struggles that some people endure every day. Here are just five that I observed from the afternoon of December 23 through the afternoon of Christmas Eve:
- While driving across the state to the Detroit area, Debbie and I called Terry and Jane, my brother-in-law and sister-in-law in Delaware. That’s when we learned that it had been necessary for our niece, Leslie, to do Jane’s Christmas shopping since Jane, who has multiple myeloma, is recovering from a transplant of her own stem cells and must avoid crowds because her immune system has been weakened. Jane loves shopping. It’s one of her favorite things to do in life. I tried to imagine having her illness and how frustrating it must feel to be deprived of a simple pleasure such as shopping.
- The next morning, we had to make a quick trip to the office of a family friend who is an attorney. Along the way I stopped for a red light on the Telegraph Road service drive, before turning left onto I-96. That’s when I spotted a grizzled old man in raggedy clothes holding one of those hand-lettered cardboard signs that says “HOMELESS ANYTHING WILL HELP GOD BLESS” Now, I understand that a lot of street-corner people are winos scamming the public for their next bottle of muscatel. Even so, I wondered what events had transpired in the man’s life to bring him to that forsaken corner near the freeway that morning. Later, it bothered me that I hadn’t slipped him a dollar bill or some change. After all, it was Christmas Eve.
- During conversation at the office of our trust attorney, Debbie and I listened to a story about his nephew in Boston who has MS, three young children and a whacked-out ex-wife. Rather than allow the young man to pick up the kids early for the long drive to Detroit so the kids could spend time with their grandparents at Christmas time, the ex-wife held him to the letter of the court’s decision and would not release the children a minute earlier than the appointed 4 o’clock hour. Imagine having MS, having to endure 12 hours behind the wheel on a wintry drive to Detroit, while attending to the needs of three small children in the backseat…and finally arriving at your destination at 4 o’clock in the morning. Talk about the struggles of daily life.
- Back at my sister’s house, family members began to arrive for cocktails and conversation at mid afternoon, before the traditional Christmas Eve dinner. It’s a time when old friends also drop by to say “Merry Christmas.” Among them that day was one who has battled an addiction to alcohol for decades. He was certainly “appropriate” during the entire time of his visit, but it was obvious to all that he was “lit” when he exited out the back door. As I looked through the front window and watched him drive away in his truck, I thought about the loneliness he feels and his frustration at the inability to cope with the alcoholism that kicks his ass every day.
- Toward the end of the night, after dinner and the exchange of “white elephant” gifts, some singing and such, I sat relaxed in a chair pointed toward the basement steps. That’s when I observed my brother’s wife, Lisa, who has MS and her left leg in a brace, carefully negotiate the steps—one at a time—until she reached the bottom. Then, she slowly lowered herself to the floor, stretched out to pet our dog…and smiled. I wondered how many more steps she would have to carefully negotiate at home that night and on Christmas morning.
In the days when our traditional family Christmas Eve celebration was held at my parents’ house, at the end of the night my Dad would invariably kick back with a Manhattan in hand, contort his face for emphasis and proclaim, “I’ve had a wonderful life, and if I could do it all over again I wouldn’t change a damn thing.” I knew better. I knew he would change a lot of things, if he could. But I also knew what he was really trying to say—that in the main, he was thankful for what he had in life and for the way it had played out. Me too.
It takes some luck to survive one’s teenage years.
December 20, 2013
Every time I hear a break-your-heart story about teenagers killed in an automobile accident, my first thoughts are about the kids who were in the back seat.
In the wrong place at the wrong time.
Then I think back to all those times when it could have been me. Or my friends. Or worse, my kids. No question about it, surviving one’s adolescence requires a good measure of luck. Especially when stupid decisions are involved. Such as the ones I was a part of when my friends and I were young stallions.
For example, there was the one that Garry, Bo and I collectively made in 1963, during my sophomore year in high school, after a basketball game at St. Al’s. We had been walking through freshly fallen snow on our way to Bo’s house for a late-night snack when we stopped under a streetlight and began to stare at his parents’ second-floor bedroom. All the lights in the house were out. The folks were already in bed.
Then it came to us.
Find the keys to the Bozynskies’ family car. Open the garage door. Push the ol’ ‘58 Merc down the driveway so as not to make a sound. Start the vehicle in the street. And take off.
Which we did. And headed straight for Toledo. With a bottle of Bali Hai Bo had previously stashed in the bushes behind his house. None of us had a driver’s license. So Garry, who had some experience behind the wheel of his older brother’s Volkswagen, was elected to drive.
It ordinarily took an hour to motor from Dearborn to Toledo where 18-year-olds in those days could legally buy 3.2 beer. (I can’t account for the logic of our intended destination since Bo was 15, Garry and I had just turned 16 and none of us had fake ID.) Because of the weather, it took 30 minutes just to make it to I-75, On the freeway, the snow—now mixed with rain—began to fall harder, covering the road with a slippery glop.
Then suddenly, Garry lost control of the car. We did a couple of 360s and came to a stop against the guardrail separating the high-speed lanes on the expressway. I have no idea how many vehicles swerved to avoid us because visibility was essentially zero through our slush-covered windows. Cushioned by snow piled up against the barrier, the car was undamaged. Fortunately, Garry was able to get the Merc rolling again, turned around at the next exit and headed for home.
Back at Bo’s house, we opened the garage door, drove the car up the driveway, killed the engine and allowed the momentum of the vehicle to carry us back into the garage.
But for the grace of God…
Then there was the time about a year later when Garry and I, as well as my lifelong buddy Tony, were part of an even stupider teenage decision.
One afternoon while Mr. and Mrs. Adams were visiting relatives, Tony, knowing where to find the key to his Dad’s locked gun rack, grabbed Mr. Adams’ shotgun and some shells. The three of us then drove out to a piece of wooded property that Mr. Adams owned in Canton before the state acquired it for an entrance ramp to I-275.
We loaded the gun and took turns bagging sparrows and the occasional cardinal. I aimed one shot over the hindquarters of a stray dog. Yet all we really knew about firearms was what we picked up from watching cowboys on TV. One careless move and we could have been the lead story on the 11 o’clock news that night.
The three of us were all class officers at one time or another during high school. We were good students, good athletes—kids with bright, promising futures who the nuns called “leaders.” Which proves absolutely nothing except that we were damn lucky not to have led ourselves into a terrible tragedy.
Forty years later, my sense of invincibility had long since disappeared when my cell phone rang one night while driving home in heavy traffic on Dixie Highway in Clarkston.
"Daddy, I had an accident. It’s terrible…" my 16-year-old daughter Erin frantically screamed on the other end.
With her twin sister, Lindsay, and three other girls in the car on their way to a concert, Erin was broadsided while pulling out into traffic on the edge of town. No stupid decisions had been made. No alcohol was involved. Just the inexperience of a young driver. And after I sped to the crash site, after sprinting the equivalent of a city block to reach the flashing lights of the police car and ambulance, I found five beautiful, young girls shaken but unscathed. They had been lucky. The car had been totaled. And after pausing for a moment to collect myself on the scene, I realized that it takes some luck for a father to survive a child’s teenage years, too.
I swear I’m not a “creeper;” I just like seeing life lived through the windows of the homes in my neighborhood at night.
December 9, 2013
I have this thing about curtains, drapes, shades and blinds. I don’t particularly care for them. When we lived on a dirt road in Clarkston, surrounded by tall oak trees, I finally convinced Debbie toward the end of our time there to get rid of the window coverings hanging in our family room.
"With all these trees, no one can see into here anyway," I protested. "So what’s the point?"
In Grand Haven, where we live now, an unusually high percentage of people keep their window coverings open to the world when the sun goes down at night.
Perhaps it has something to do with the general perception of safety in our neighborhood. Perhaps it’s because Grand Haven is a Lake Michigan resort town where an “at-the-beach” mentality is in the air during the nicer months of the year.
All I know is that I am strangely energized by it.
I recall a particularly beautiful Friday evening in the fall when I was returning home from a walk near the waterfront with my dog. I passed a small white house with the curtains wide open. The living room emanated a golden glow. As I walked by, through the windows I could plainly see an older couple sipping wine. Talking. Living life.
On the next block, I passed the side of a corner house where the curtains were wide open. I could clearly see into the dining room where a middle-aged couple seemed to be entertaining a guest at a candlelight dinner.
I then turned left, and through a front window I could see a young family eating pizza together at their kitchen table. On the last leg of my walk I was able to see into many of the older homes in the area, built at the turn of the last century, with their wooden staircases, paneled entryways and wide moldings around the interior doors.
It’s difficult to explain, but life seems so good to me at moments such as that.
Being able to see into a home or apartment at night has long done that to me. I recall being on a business trip in Chicago during the early ’90s, walking the streets of Lincoln Park one evening after dinner, and seeing young hipsters through window after window of practically every “graystone” on the block—on their feet or at a table, cocktails in hand, laughing, bobbing their heads to music in brightly lit apartments—seemingly unconcerned about closing themselves off to the eyes of the world.
I even prefer bars and restaurants with uncovered windows—the bigger the better—that let in the light or enable me too look out to life on the street. Same for stores with expansive windows that seem to say “Hey, this is what we do here…come inside.”
Obviously, In some neighborhoods, even so called “good neighborhoods,” it isn’t smart to leave the curtains open in the evening, advertising one’s possessions to street jackals who may be on the prowl. And some neighborhoods, of course, are so tough that the people who live in them feel compelled to keep their curtains closed all day. And I think back to how stunned I was on the first night of my first trip to Poland in 1984 when our hosts got up and stealthily closed the drapes in their living room when the topic of conversation turned to criticism of the country’s communist government at the time.
Perhaps that is why I like being able to see life being lived through uncovered windows when I’m on the street at night. I know this much: I try never to take for granted that I live in a place where I feel free to exercise the option of keeping the curtains open when the sun goes down.
I have long preferred college football and basketball to the pros, but I’m uncomfortable with the way big money is changing them.
November 25, 2013
There was a time when I could name every starting player—on both offense and defense—for the Detroit Lions. I haven’t been able to do that for I don’t know how long.
I used to know the starting five for the Detroit Pistons every year, too. Now, I wouldn’t recognize Rodney Stuckey if he walked into my living room because I haven’t watched a Pistons game in five years.
I’m still familiar with the roster of the Detroit Tigers every summer, but there was a time when I could name many of the starting players on every American League team. I haven’t been able to do that in decades.
Professional sports just don’t mean as much to me as they once did.
Too many teams. Too many games. Too many players who jump from team to team. And the seasons are so long that during some months of the year, all four major pro sports (football, baseball, basketball and hockey) are playing their games at the same time. Who can keep up with it all?
It’s all about the money, of course.
I’m not sure how much is too much for an athlete to make. But c’mon, Yankee free agent Robinson Cano, for example, is reportedly seeking a ten-year, $300 million contract.* Seems practically immoral to me.
I have preferred college sports to the pros for many years now, whether live or on TV. The sights, smells, traditions and emotional build-up that go with a big game on a football Saturday is, in my judgement, one of the most fun things a person can experience in life. I love seeing a partisan fan speed around campus on a motorized beer cooler, or listening to a strolling group of glee club members singing the Michigan State fight song while I’m downing a sloppy Joe and a bottle of Rolling Rock at the tailgate of my car.
And even if I’m watching, say, Wisconsin football or Duke basketball on the tube, I get “pumped” by the sound of a college band rocking it in the stands, the zaniness of any student section and the emotion of passionate alumni and fans.
I just don’t have the time to stay up on the pros because beyond following what happens on the field or on the court, it’s all that I can do to stay knowledgeable about which high school athletes my alma mater is recruiting, how the players on the team are developing and knowing a little bit about what’s going on at the other Big Ten schools so that I can better understand how my school measures up in comparison.
However, “big money” began to alter collegiate sports years ago, and I am increasingly uneasy about it.
Today, instead of a manageable ten-game game schedule, college football seasons have increased to 13 games (including a bowl game). Fourteen if you play in a conference title game. And 15 if you make it to the national championship. Instead of a handful of highly anticipated college bowl games on January 1, there are a glut of bowls—over 30 of them—during the last two weeks of December. And the national championship game, God forbid, is now played on a Monday night—more “eyeballs” for TV, of course—rather than on New Year’s Day, which for decades was a fabulous holiday tradition.
Until the ’70s, practically all college football games were played at one o’clock in the afternoon. It made for perfect Saturdays in the fall. You could plan out your day and get to and from the game within a reasonable time frame. Or, if you were watching a game on TV at home, you could run some errands in the morning, rake the leaves after the game and then get primed for Saturday night. But the television networks and college presidents determined that more money could be made by scheduling games at 12 noon and 3:30 pm. Televised night games came soon after that.
Trouble is, noon games mean that many college football fans, who generally come from all over a particular state, have to be on the road by dawn to have enough time to load the car with game-day provisions, set up their tailgates and enjoy the campus atmosphere before they walk to the stadium. And by the time you get back to your car and off campus four hours after the start of a 3:30 game, you’re making the long drive home in the dead of night.
The argument in favor of longer college football seasons, all the televised games and the proliferation of “flea bag” bowls—not to mention up to 40 college basketball games a year—is that college football and basketball, the two major revenue-producing sports, must support 25 or so other sports—fencing, soccer, track, lacrosse, tennis, wrestling, rowing, etc.—for both men and women on most major college campuses.
I get that. And for a long time I bought into it. But now there are facilities wars going on across the country (“My basketball practice building is bigger than your basketball practice building…”) often costing hundreds of millions of dollars. When it comes to television contracts, the Pac 12 signed a $3 billion deal—that’s billion—with ESPN and Fox a couple of years ago. And now there is serious discussion that the time has come to pay college athletes. Not good, says I.
I toured the Skandalaris Center, part of the football complex at MSU, a few years ago and walked out of the weight “room,” the size of a small city block, in utter amazement at the amount, size and sophistication of the equipment employed to build the bodies of young Spartan athletes. I’ve had the opportunity to see a couple of games in the luxury suites at Michigan State—with their stuffed, green leather chairs, high-def TVs, and kitchenettes overflowing with serious food and cold beverages. And now my school is building an addition to the north end of the stadium with state-of-the-art locker rooms for the players, coaches and officials; special media facilities for post-game press conferences and a dedicated lounge for hosting high school recruits.
I love the facilities. I want my school to be among those at the forefront of collegiate athletics. But where does the spending for all this stuff stop? How is one’s school to match resources with such modern-day football factories as Alabama, Texas or Ohio State? The price of a ticket to get inside a college football stadium on some campuses is now $80 a pop. Beyond that, season ticket holders at many schools have to pay a yearly licensing fee just for the “right” to purchase season tickets.
I am thoroughly conflicted by it all. Not only because of the obscene amount of money required for schools to “compete” but because of what it’s doing to student-athletes. Or is it athlete-students? During the football or basketball season it’s a full-time job for them—40 hours a week spent practicing, training in the weight room, conditioning, going over film, studying the play book, team meetings and more.
Thus it’s becoming increasingly difficult to argue against paying players who are worth so much to the value of a university’s brand, who attract so much publicity for their schools and who enable major college coaches to command seven-figure salaries.
All I know is that big bucks spoiled pro sports for me years ago. Money tarnished the beauty of the Olympic games for me, too. I mean who wants to see LeBron James and a bunch of NBA all stars beat up on Slovenia? I cannot imagine that I will ever not love Spartan green, but I fear that college sports in general will be despoiled by the color of money.
*Cano eventually signed a 10-year, $240 million contract with the Seattle Mariners.
Our dogs didn’t always listen to our commands, but they always listened to our problems.
November 4, 2013
Sometimes, when Debbie and I look back on our time together, we recall certain family events as having occurred during the “Angela years,” or the “Erma years,” or the “Wanda years.”
Angela and Erma were the names of our first two dogs; Wanda (“the Wonder Dog”) is the name of our current pet.
We’ve had three females, all with “human” names. Debbie has never been a fan of male dogs because of their propensity for “humping” and “lifting their legs.” So when we picked out our first puppy from a litter of Golden Retrievers back in 1980, “Angelo,” the name I had selected for what I assumed would be a male pet, became “Angela.”
Angela was our first “child,” having come along four or five years before our son Nick. She was light-colored with a beautiful coat, smart and could be trusted to roam the house all day without making a “mess,” although one time she chewed the bottom rung of a dining room chair, and on another occasion chewed the slats of an old wooden seat I had salvaged from a late ’70s remodel of Detroit’s Tiger Stadium.
My Mom didn’t allow pets when I was growing up, so having a dog like Angela was a totally new experience for me. I never anticipated “talking to the dog” as much as I did with her. She would turn her head, as if to understand, when I fretted aloud about an upcoming presentation while getting ready for work in the morning. Angela heard it all from Debbie and me in the early years of our marriage—about our problems starting a family, career decisions, leaving our old neighborhood in Detroit, etc. She always listened. And, of course, she never judged.
By 1990, when we moved into the house we built in Clarkston, Angela was showing signs of old age. Her facial hair had turned gray, she had lost her zip, and mostly she just laid around all day. So one evening we brought home “Erma,” a black puppy whose Golden Retriever mother had been “jumped” by a stray, to keep Angela company. Our kids were in elementary school at the time and named her after a character in the first “Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles” movie.
It was great how Erma would walk our kids up the driveway every morning and wait with them until they boarded the bus for school. Then she’d walk back down to the house, sadly so it seemed, only to sprint energetically back up the drive to greet them at the road when the bus brought them back home in the afternoon. She was really smart, although she once chewed the insoles out of a pair of Nick’s Doc Martens and wrung the necks of a few woodchucks that wandered onto our property. When the family would gather at the table for dinner and Erma came begging, all we had to do was say, “Erma, we’re eating.” And she’d amble off to the kitchen to lay down obediently until we were done.
Those were good days for our family. Debbie was able to be a stay-at-home Mom; things were going great for me at my job; and ol’ Erma was always around, taking in the commotion of our six-person household.
By the time the kids were in their teens, Erma had become a fixture at the back door of our house, laying there all day during her old age. Then one afternoon, while Debbie and I were in Naples, celebrating our twenty-fifth wedding anniversary, we received a call that Erma had died. It was left to my old friend, Bernie Reuter, to bury her in the woods behind our house.
A few months later we spotted an ad in the Detroit News describing a litter of puppies that had been mothered by a Rottweiler and fathered by a chocolate lab. It sounded like an interesting mix, and so that day we brought home a fluffy, black female that our daughter Erin named “Wanda.”
Truth be told, Wanda holds the most special of special places we have in our hearts for all three of the dogs we’ve had. She was home alone, attached to a long lead outside, waiting for Nick to return from work, on the day that a fallen tree hit a power line, triggering a surge that caused the fire that destroyed our home. She was discovered—and saved, thank God—by an off-duty firefighter who noticed smoke coming from the front porch of our house.
Wanda lived with us at three different temporary residences before we finally moved permanently to our Grand Haven home. Many times she laid at our feet, attentively listening, as we agonized over what to do to make a comeback from our tragedy. Since then, she has rarely let us out of her sight. We sense that she remembers watching the inferno from the top of the hill at our neighbor’s home after her rescue.
I can certainly understand how having a dog—or any kind of pet—isn’t necessarily for everyone. But with the way Debbie and I are wired, needing a pet like Wanda to talk to in the morning while making coffee, or to question, rhetorically, about what to wear on Saturday night, I can’t imagine us ever living without a dog in our house.
We’ve had three fabulous family companions, but it’s sad to think that there inevitably will be a fourth because a time will come when Wanda won’t be there in the room with us when we get up in the morning or when we go to bed at night.